Last Sunday I turned 30.
I can still remember being a teenager and thinking that 30 was SO old.
It was always the age I had in my head of when I would officially be a ‘proper adult’.
A responsible grown-up who always paid the bills on time and had lots of savings for occasions when the washing machine broke.
My definition of what makes a proper adult was pretty unrealistic though because turning 30, or any age for that matter was never going to snap me out of my un-organised ways and habit of spending money when I have it without thinking about what I will do when it’s gone. I’ve never been very good at saving and to be honest, don’t think I ever will be. I am much better than I used to be though, in that I will use my money to pay the bills now and not go and blow it all in the pub on a Friday night!
I did also see myself being married by the age of 30 which I’m not going to lie, is something that I’m kind of disappointed about but I have completely given up on making an issue out of it as there is just no point. Mr C will never do something because he feels like he has to so all I can do is hope that he changes his views on it one day, preferably before I’m 40!!
There is however lots I have achieved that I am so happy about.
Firstly of course is my two amazing children, the moment Cherry was born I changed into the person that I was always meant to be. The confidence in myself that was missing suddenly appeared and has continued to grow over the last few years. She changed both Mr C and I into different people. I knew I always wanted to be a parent, Mr C didn’t though but from the moment Cherry was born his whole outlook on life changed.
As Cherry wasn’t planned it was nice to have made the decision to try for another baby and when Tiger arrived he changed us into a proper team, before it was just us and a baby but adding another person has really changed the dynamics of our family. It just feels right now, complete. DEFINITELY complete, I find two kids such hard work and I can’t even begin to imagine adding another one!!
Then there is my relationship with Mr C. We’ve been together for 11 years and have known each other for 17 years, I know I’ve mentioned it before but when I was 13 I had a huge crush on him but ended up with someone else for 5 years. Someone who didn’t treat me very well and left me with very little confidence and huge trust issues.
When I think back to when we first got together things have changed so much. I love that we share so much history but at the same time things haven’t always been easy, far from it in fact. We’ve been on a huge journey and after Tiger’s arrival we had to work especially hard to get things back on track but I do feel like things are better than they ever have been right now and I’m so determined to make sure they stay that way, we both are. He is such an amazing dad and watching him in that role makes me so happy, I couldn’t wish for a better person to be on this parenting journey with.
And lastly is my blog. I know some people think it’s just a blog and that it’s no big deal but as you’ve heard me say lots of times it really has changed my life in so many ways. I’ve made great friendships, discovered my creative side again and of course found a way of making money that doesn’t feel like work. I’m so inspired and have so many plans for the future.
So all in all turning 30 hasn’t been so bad. 40 on the other hand still freaks me out, I just can’t imagine ever feeling like a 40 year old but that’s the whole thing isn’t it. You are always still you, you might achieve more, learn more and age more but your mind stays the same. Luckily I still get ID’d for matches so I don’t need to worry about it just yet 😉
I spent my birthday with my dad, sister and brother which was lovely as I don’t get to see them very often.
We met at Westonbirt Arboretum which is half-way between where we both live and luckily the sun came out just in time for our walk.
We call my brother the health and safety officer as a joke because he follows the kids round pointing out any potential dangers. It’s actually really sweet, although I have no idea how he thinks I manage when he’s not there!
What are your thoughts on turning 30?!