Love

I love this little girl more than I could ever put into words.

I love her so much that it has been known to reduce me to tears, both for good and bad reasons!

I love her so much that the thought of something happening to her terrifies me more than anything else in the whole world.

The thought of something happening to me follows closely behind because I always want to be here for her and I want to watch her grow-up.

I struggle with the fact that life doesn’t always allow that.

I try and appreciate every moment I spend with her, I don’t have to try hard, being in her company is such a privilege and we have so much fun together.

She makes me laugh every single day without fail.

She is so caring. She tells me to sit down when I say I’m tired and she rubs my back when I say it hurts.

She is an absolute sweetheart.

But she is also a toddler, and some days it is bloody hard work.

Some days her moaning makes me want to go and lie upstairs in a dark room.

Sometimes I refuse to read her the book I have read her five million times already.

But it’s okay.

I don’t feel bad for not enjoying every single minute of her company because I know how much I love her and that will never change.

As my pregnancy progresses and our time as a two runs out I am starting to think about what things will be like when there is a new baby here.

I know that eventually she will love having a little brother to play with but I also know that it will take a little while for her to adjust. It makes me feel a bit sad that she won’t have our full attention anymore.

I know that when there is another little person here our love will multiply.

I think it’s just harder to imagine when it is an idea instead of a reality.

As the excitement increases at the thought of meeting our new arrival, I will carry on making the most of our time as a family of three because I am sure that once our little man has arrived I will be feeling guilty that he didn’t get any time on his own with us at all, but then he is going to have another little person to love him, and boss him around!